so they say that the world does not revolve around you. as it turns out the world around you, does revolve around you. its easy to bury your heart in a big old box filled with hope and thought... but its a recipe for disaster spinning faster and faster and faster. we have the autonomy to believe and conceive the notions of our genius. it can haunt your thoughts/make you feel lost, but you are maker and master. the god of your own life, if you own what makes it worth your while. yes, you can sulk in all of the ugliness! but your vampirism we do contest. if you are hurting from the awful mess its likely your own fault. at best its something beyond your control. but oh, i hope the awfulness isn't something that keeps you from happiness. if its broken then you mend it. its yours to fix. but let the joy come from within. yes! you are capable of sin! you are a part of a generation who tells you its not your fault. we cant control it. i'm sorry but thats such a crock of shit. you are the only one who changes how you live. so they say that the world does not revolve around you. as it turns out does it revolve around you. we have the autonomy to believe and conceive the notions of our genius. you are maker and master. you are the only one who changes how you live.

sometimes a person can start trying to rationalize or make order of the strange event that is life. and they tell you to "trust in god" or "believe it! its science!" "its a waste of time. you will end up no where" or better yet "ignorance is bliss" but truely is ignorance bliss or is that just a way of saying "fuck it, i get what i get" as far as science goes... science is not in the classroom or in textbooks. science is not stats. science is your perception. a person who wants memory and experiance of their own personal understanding is a true science. go outside! discover! understand! instead science is used to control outcome. we buy product after product because it is better or will make better what we have perviously purchased. science is used as a mass controller. as is religion, government, and the education system. i have come to gather this on my own. if you have come to a different conclusion, show me what you've got! otherwise, religion is changed over and over through history. constantly the same themes are in place and there is no denying that your religion is right.everyone else must be wrong. most religions are based on star formations (the heavens) their virtues are flawed and outdated. but face it! no one in the world will ever know 100% what is true until they die. dont make an effort to make that sooner than later. religion causes people to believe a set of issues, it leads them blindly. i have no quarrel with folks who need religion to be happy (or at least not blow their brains out) but the truth is as far as im concerned is that energy is god.it flows through everything and is never ending. if you use it for (so called) negative or positive motives, it can be accomplished. when you die your energy continues making our solar system our earth (heaven and hell) political parties? what a joke! we need to evolve our whole political structure to something that is not outdated. split up the masses and you can control them. the problem is that the parties are working for the same goal. to keep you stupid, ignorant, happy. just microwave processed garbage. "meat" stuffed corn dogs. on your couch watching flickering lights engulf a fake excitement explode through your screen comercials with subliminal themes. in your vibrating heated chair with your universal remote. never lifting a muscle (your brain)

as a learned humble child, i made my way into the wild. i climbed the tallest mountain i could see. i came upon a savage beast with ominous eyes and jagged teeth. and in ammunition i do not believe. i do not believe in ammunition. i killed a bear with my bear hands. i couldn't bear it but it had to happen. i killed a bear with my bear hands and now i have a bear claw tied upon my necklace. (i wish i had two fingers to get me off in my head i wish i had something more but i was something more wishing for something that was not there) so i took upon myself that day to send fertility his way. even though it seemed i could not compete, i fought that bear claw to fist. luckily i do not miss when i have no shoes upon my feet. i killed a bear with my bear hands. i couldn't bear it but it had to happen. i killed a bear with my bear hands and now i have a bear claw tied upon my necklace.

sometimes i feel so alone in my head. while hugs cheer me up i am still dead. my spine is melting something resembling you and all that my heart will beat is goo. i just wanna be free of all of my suffering. my branches grow thick and my roots grow deep. i am the cocoon of cacophony and i ache for the taste of something free. this is the saddest song ever written with grit and i know that you cannot help me but even when the sorrow will not quit i hold my hands out strong and steady. widows in my head. crawling and creeping. making me do things i haven't been thinking. good heavens! now they have spun a web. now all they do is spin the dead. the berries fall the veins are tempered this old mans been waiting for his center. they cut him down. surfed his limbs. they burned his heart. yeah, they got rid of him!